For decades, the lines have been clearly drawn.
On one side stands a conservative Christian woman. She is a fierce proponent of the family, dismissing the lie that marriage was created by men for the purpose of cheap labor and free sex. Pro-life, she is willing to picket, if necessary, believing that the unborn need protection.
On the other side stands a feminist. She is a fierce proponent of lesbian rights, perhaps a lesbian herself. Pro-choice, she too is willing to picket, believing that if a woman’s reproductive rights are not protected, she will end up constantly barefoot and pregnant or be forced into back alleys for abortions.
So diametrically opposed are their positions, the women seem to have nothing at all in common, except perhaps for their passion.
And then, something happens.
The feminist feels a void so enormous that it overshadows her passion to fight. She puts down her picket sign and seeks to fill that void with God, becoming of all unthinkable things, a Christian.
Perhaps, but it’s also a true story, the story of Amy Tracy, former lesbian and former press secretary for the National Organization of Women headquartered in Washington D.C.
Growing up in an abusive home and starved for affirmation, Amy said, “I always felt that there was an emptiness [inside], a missing piece.” She sought to find her place in the world as a sports medicine major in college, where a couple of Amy’s professors were lesbians.
“I felt this attraction to them,” she recalled. “At first it was more of a spiritual, emotional attraction but then it turned into something physical. And I thought, ‘Wow, this is it. This is why I’m different.'”
Amy came “out” to a close group of girlfriends and, shortly after, witnessed thousands of feminists converge in Washington DC to march for women’s rights. It was such a moving experience for her that she dedicated her life to fighting for women’s rights. Two weeks later, she became the president of the Alexandria, VA NOW chapter and, after graduating from college, moved through the ranks at headquarters to become press secretary under former NOW president Patricia Ireland.
As a recruiter and supervisor of volunteers for abortion rights marches and protests, Amy’s worldview was solidly entrenched in feminism.
“I remember working at NOW and seeing a [pregnant woman in her] third-trimester and you could never have gotten me to acknowledge that that was a baby,” she said. “It was anything else but a baby.”
NOW’s “worldview says that Christians are out to send women back into the kitchen and back into the back alleys for abortions,” said Amy. “I really viewed conservative Christian women as kind of Stepford wives that they were brainwashed by men that they really were not thinking on their own.”
Furthermore, Amy’s experiences with picketing pro-lifers did nothing to rectify her view of Christians.
“I didn’t see Christ in the Christians I encountered,” she said. “They were judgmental. They were oftentimes really hateful. They said they loved me and they hated my sin but I just felt they hated me.”
But some Christians were praying for Amy, including her sister. And the more they prayed, the more restless Amy became.
“My last two years as press secretary for NOW, I felt a deep hunger inside for God,” she recalled. “I knew it was God. It happened in the most random of places where I’d be sitting in a meeting with other press secretaries from abortion rights groups or sitting with my boss, Patricia Ireland, and I’d feel this hunger for God. Sometimes I’d feel this blanket of peace just come over me.”
Amy eventually moved to Seattle, Washington, where she looked up a church in the yellow pages and began attending. The pastor’s sermons quenched her thirst for truth and the lesbian feminist, who at one time was willing to die for women’s rights, surrendered everything and found peace in a relationship with Jesus Christ.
That was six years ago. Today, she serves as senior writer for the office of the president at Focus on the Family.
Amy didn’t put down her picket sign and cross the line to champion a different cause. Instead, she travels around the country to give her testimony at Love Won Out conferences, FOTF’s one-day events that seek to address, understand and prevent homosexuality.
Besides offering hope and encouragement to family members whose loved ones are struggling with homosexuality, Amy has another desire to see healthy Christian women reach out to feminists.
“It seemed like the Christian women I faced off against were afraid,” she said of her days spent at abortion clinics. “They were afraid of me. And I was just a person. We need to realize that this is a spiritual battle. We’re not warring against human beings.”
Warring against human beings is something Amy’s already done. And thankfully it’s something she never wants to do again.